At 111.4kgs I didn’t realise just how much I was starting to cut myself off from. I didn’t want to go out anymore, I refused to fly anywhere, I wouldn’t take part in activities, the swimming pool became a white elephant and I stopped wanting to meet people.
Last week I went to Johannesburg and how wonderful to fit into the airline seats again. I didn’t have to sit all scrunched up trying to make myself take up less space, I didn’t have to feel all embarrassed because my fat butt was spilling over into the personal space of the person next to me and I could carry my bags around without huffing and puffing like Thomas the tank engine.
In Joeys I actually made plans to meet some friends that I’ve been speaking to on Facebook and the blogs for more than 10 years. It was awesome! They were exactly as I pictured them and I loved every single minute I spent with them.
Losing weight means gaining a certain type of freedom. As much as what we would like to tell ourselves that people must take us as we are, we still have that little worm sitting on our shoulders whispering in our ear that people will always judge us for our size. I wish it wasn’t true, but the sad and undeniable truth is that most people WILL judge people based on their looks and appearance. Even the Marketing industry knows that they have 1.4 seconds to grab the interest of the public and they do that by putting beautiful and cute humans in their add campaigns.
So sorry 111.4kg Lynda, not only did people judge you for your inability to maintain a healthy life-style, you were also guilty of the same thing… why else did you start cutting yourself off from the world – obviously you judged yourself unworthy… not so?
Well 91kg Lynda is starting to live again and I’m living proof that it is NEVER too late to make changes. I’m also a walking billboard that you CAN pick yourself up, dust yourself off and skip into the sunset with a happy smile on your face. Take babysteps in the beginning and soon you will see that your slow little shuffle into the right direction has picked up speed and you are starting to gallop with great abandonment.
Well that is enough pep talk for myself on this hot and humid day!
Right now Cape Town is in the middle of a heatwave and I’m combatting it with some fresh mango, strawberries, ice water and my weekly break-away treat… a sugar-free nougat! YUM! Who says a healthy eating plan is boring and tasteless?