Up until last week Friday I was still happily wearing all the clothes I used to wear before I started losing weight. People have been telling me that its hanging on me and that I should now get smaller sizes but as usual – I ignore any advise and just carry on doing what ever I want.
Friday I walked into a shopping centre and as I went down on my haunches to tie my shoe laces – I could feel my pants sliding down my hips! I frantically grabbed at it with both hands and in the process dropped my bag, my waterbottle and in the confusion I proceeded to trip over my loose shoelace. As I went sprawling… my only coherent thought was… “stupid cow – you need to listen to people – this pants is too damn big!”
I went home and took a long hard look at my clothes.
I’ve kinda reconciled myself to the fact that my favourite black pants (all eight of them) will now have to be thrown away – but I didn’t reckon on how seriously large some of my shirts are now looking on me. Can 14.9 kgs do THAT big a change to my silhouette? Yikes!
So I fitted some of my big shirts on and even though I bought a much smaller black pants – there is still NO way in hell that I can carry on wearing them… Where the hell are all my smaller clothes? Did I somehow along the way get rid of them or haven’t I seen a smaller size in over a decade?
So with a squealing, crying and swearing credit card – I ventured into the shops to buy myself a couple of clothes to tide me over till I reach goal weight. My credit card is now in traction and having a nervous breakdown at some asylum because I not only had to buy a couple of shirts – I also had to replace some of my underwear as well as a bathing costume and two nightshirts. *INSERT COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF SWEAR WORDS HERE*
Its stupid because I don’t intent to stay this weight!
However – I DID buy the clothes a little bit tighter on me than what I’m used to in order to make sure that I diet some more and not become all complacent. At least I can carry on wearing this for another 15-20kgs before I have to replace this as well… (I HOPE!)
I love losing weight like this – but the reality that goes with it – is sometimes a bitter-sweet pill to swallow.
I could have bought myself a new solar driven robot with that money… Yes yes I know – I’m a gadget freak – but my goodness I would rather play with something as entertaining as electronics than waste it on clothes… *sulk*
Oh well I guess its time to grow up and get my priorities in order – I can’t carry on going to work looking like a bag lady.
IN CASE you are interested and just for my sister who lives in Australia – here are SOME of the clothes and the reason I have to throw it out… Which is messed up because I still have so much still to lose… 😦
I tried all the outfits WITH the smaller pants – but alas the tops are still looking unacceptably voluminous.
And I leave you with two of the outfits that I bought for work… the pants is a 16 and not a 20 and the tops are 16 as well and not my usual size 24. You can see its a bit tight – but if I suck my breath in, try and get my breasts to meet my backbone and squeeze my butt cheeks together – then they look kinda ok. Its just until I drop a further couple of kilograms and then it will fit nicely.
Check the pose – jeez!